Really, I do, but... it's how I felt.

The only reason I really hate it is becaue it makes it sound like my life sucks, and my life doesn't suck, that particular situation sucked. It sucked big time.

My life though, quite the contrary. My life is blessed, and I know it! I don't like to make things out like my life is not blessed, but sometimes, sometimes things feel sucky and I can either pretend like life is always all honky dorey (yes, I say honky dorey, call me a dork) or I can be real, and share that sometimes... just sometimes... a situation in my life sucks, really sucks.

Ok, now that I've written the word sucks more times then I've ever actually spoken the word probably in my lifetime (I don't go around saying sucks lol, I just think it, and think 'outloud' on this, my journal) let's get onto other topics.

So we changed our minds and decided to keep our house on the market. I don't know what happened really, but I just felt SICK about taking it off the market. Like we were locking a door that is supposed to be left open. I'm not saying that means the house might sell this winter, I have no clue. Maybe it just means we were supposed to keep our offer in on the other house/farm 3000 miles away? Who knows. At this moment, we have re-signed a new offer good till Nov. 30th, and we were told the sellers wanted us to put in an offer extension again, but I have yet to hear back about whether they actually signed it or not. We shall see. I'm NOT stressing about it. I simply want us to keep all doors open, without pushing anything that doesn't seem to want to be opened. Leaving doors open for God to move, not slamming doors shut in His face, yet also trying our best not to pry open anything He has shut. We've been praying all along that if that is not the property for us, please Lord sell it! If it is to be our homestead, save it and sell this place.

In other news, I've spent the last two days all by my lonesome for the first time since having my first child 17 years ago. The kids are spending two nights at my parents and have left me here to feed the zoo, all by my lonesome. This morning wasn't too bad, but yesterday, and the evening before, all three times I had to feed the horses in the pouring rain. Since we have five horses, and two paddocks, this means they eat in the same spaces together. Mina and Lacey (mama and baby) eat together and they are fine but the other three. Look out! lol We keep the spaced apart, but one gets quite a bit more feed then the other two and he happens to be our only male, and a big pushover. Our two mares who are in with him, try to steal his feed, so that means I have to stand there, with crop in hand, guarding him until slow poke Bandit is finished his meal. lol This is tons of fun, twice a day, in the pouring rain when it's cold outside! Oh yes, LOADS of fun!

But, I've survived all the feedings. The horses, rabbits, chickens, dogs and cats have all survived without five children to help. lol  I'm feeling rather proud of myself. lol

Ah! While typing this out, the realtor just let me know that yes, the sellers of the homestead did indeed agree to, and sign the extension. Wooo hooo. Now we have till Nov 30th to get this place sold. lol Or write another extension. If we get that house, it will go down as the sale with the most extensions in history.

Anywho...
I must run. I'm trying to get ahead in my sewing work so that once the kids are home I can have a couple of days off. We go to have Thanksgiving at my parents tonight and pick them up at that time.