
I was reading over at a friends blog: http://epiphanysprings.blogspot.com/2009/03/because-i-need-things-spelled-out-extra.html
It's funny how so often God will be speaking the same things to His children.
If you have a moment, go over there and read, then come back here.
After reading her post, I shared this comment.
As they say, every journey starts with one step.
Funny, I was just pondering this very thought yesterday, and I thought almost the exact same thing you did, "I have five kids, I school them, feed them, care for them, surely I'm not selfish with my time, am I?"
Yes, I am. I know that most times, I'd much rather sew, then make dessert for after dinner even though I know my family loves it when I do. I know I often use 'work' as an excuse to say "no, not right now"
It's so hard (AND PAINFUL!) to see ourselves through God's eyes when our own vision of ourselves is so often seen through rose colored glasses.
I don't like to be so honest as to share the reality of my life like that. It hurts to admit that yes, sometimes I'd rather go sew then bake for my family, or I'd rather sit here at the computer 'working' then reading the children a story. It happens all too frequently lately, and I've gotten in a rutt. I know I'm a good mom, but I know I could be a WHOLE lot better. I know I'm a good person, but I know I could be a WHOLE lot better. I know I'm a good wife, but I know I could be a WHOLE lot better too.
That's been my prayer lately. Lord, help me to hear your Holy Spirit speaking to me.
I already know He does. I know He points out things to me that I could be doing for others. Often I don't hear Him. Even more often, I do, and I put Him on ignore...
Ouch. It hurts to admit it...